Today is the third friday of the month of january of 2010. I am writing these meaningless things at home but do not think I am desperate, I have so hopes deep inside me. I am gonna try to express my feelings, which yield to jump out for a long time, this time. I have been working in a private foundation for about six months, I have a nice and relax job in Istanbul but its salary is not enough to construct a comfortable life with the girl whom I adore and wanna marry and also its is not enough to help my family. however while i am comlplaning about this, so many people outside of these walls, which hide me, struggle to have a life with little money so this makes me crazy. I wanna help people but i cannot. Anyway it is no use to write here something. I have decided to do something very important in my life. I will go everywhere wherever it is because everyinches of this country belongs to us and if we do not save it, GOD DAMN SHITS HAPPEN. I want to be volunteer for going south east border of Turkey while I am servicing my compulsary millitary service and if I can do, i wanna spend rest of my life there. everybody scares everybody hesitates everybody locks their minds and mouths. It is too difficult for a nation to have such kind of territory during 1000 years but we achieved as always. if so many people were able to be sacrified for this, so can we. I am aware maybe I am writing in vain but this is all i can do for the time being. Whatever.
I wanna mention about how mydays are spent: everyday I wake up and go to work and have classes and come back home at 10 pm, friday is my off day.
very enjoyable, right ???????
I have been reading a book about Abdulhamid the second of Ottoman Empire. I claim that if this man had not been given birth, we wouldnt have had neither Ataturk nor Turkey. We owe this counrty first to GOD second to Ottoman dynasty ( of course not every of them ).
I miss having exams, I miss talking with my friends from university, I miss you guys YASEMIN, EMRAH, MUSTAFA(S), AKIF, MEHMET, TANNUR, YAGMUR and her group, AHMET(S), SEYMA and (OMER despite everything whatever happened between us).
TAKE CARE OF YOU GUYS, LIFE IS HARD AND HARSH