Thanks Şeyma for makıng me aware of myself

Muammer Karaca said...


1. What is your biggest dream you haven't been able to accomplish yet?



being a fighting pilot was my greatest dream but i still wanna be pilot and i am gonna do it when i have enough money



2. Are you interested in fashion? Then who is your inspiration?



if i answer this by thinking on my way i do not inspire from anybody actually i am not intersted in fashion i just put on what i like i do not care what people think about my clothes but if i have to give an asnwer for a girl i am trying to follow recent fashion styles for my dear beloved and i believe i can do it, yasemin is my inspiration



3. Which day of the week do you feel YOURS most?



i think sunday is my day but it is because of family not holiday, i love being with my family and playing with my nephews and niece so i can get rid of the all pressure when i see them so ...



4. Do you watch television? What kind of programmes is your cup of tea?



yes i do in the mornings and at nights i especially adore watching news and documentaries but i hate stupid love tv series



5- I feel lonely even in the crowds because/when nobody understand what i feel or when they dont figure out my ideas



6. Can you play a musical instrument? OR if you'd want to play one, what would that be?



unfourtunately nooooo but if i could i would like to play zither because its sound makes me comfortable and soft against the life



7. What are you thinking right now?



what i think is that "what a nice song or instrumental music this is ( edward`s lullaby)



8. If you'd have to live in another country, where would you wanna go? Why?

i am really satisfied with my own country but if, one day ,if i had to abandon myland i would live in japan or madagascar because i dont know why but i like japanese culture and i wanna experience it by living there and i also love nature sea and jungle that`s why i write this african counrty



9. Which one do you do more often: Laugh or Cry? Why?



i have to confess that i am not good at doing both however i have an expert degree upon thinking and thinking and thinking and taking decision for nothing ( unhappily)



1o. Give me a good reason why you truly welcome 2010?



because i am gonna try my best to have my own famly so 2010 must, has to, should welcome me :) not ı do for it

This is for Şeyma's chain

Muammer Karaca said...

1. When exactly is your birthday?

27 August



2. What is your biggest passion?

getting to learn and understand about the life as much as ı can.



3. What are your expectations of the new year?

just some happiness and seeing my mum's sweet smiling everytime everywhere.



4. If you were given the chance to get something you want most in your entire life, what would that be?

I I had the chance I would love to help the young guy that ı dıdnt 6 years ago.



5. How would you complete this sentence below:



- I'm pissed off when somebody orders me



6. What was the most interesting class you've ever taken?

history



7. What is your favorite flower? Why?

White roses as they represent the purity and true friendship



8. Would you still love or be friends with someone that did you wrong? Why?

I cannot be



9. Why do you blog?

lying to myself



1o. How would you describe your philosophy in life, if you have one?

too desperate to kill myself but alsoooooo too happy to hug everybody

You fellas, I need help

I NEED TO BUY SUIT, THESE ARE THAT I LOVE AND ADORE BUT CANNOT DECIDE WHICH IS THE BEST, PLS HELP ME. OR CAN YOU GIVE SOME ADVICES ABOUT COLOURS OR STYLES?

Living but cannot loving in Istanbul

Here is my quote;

 Always try to be friend with whom that tries to be friend but never insist on keeping on it.

I sometimes wonder who I am or what I should do.

I have now understood the meaning of the "blue".

If I am blue so I can be ice, too. Right ?

I am an alone community who fight against my own cruelity to save the life in me ever since I have lost my beliefs and self-confidence. I was wrong on so many things. Everything was seen me as Istanbul that hundreds or even millions of kings and soldiers died or were killed for the sake of conquering this superb city, I should be like Istanbul to be conguered for the sake of me. I try to renew myself and there will not be any places for females.

I go to work by bus and it takes maximum 15 minutes but three days ago i decided to walk home and then I did it. I was so stupid that i could not noticed this beauty before, there is a perfect view and although I have passed over it for at least 20 years i couldnt understand how beautiful it is. And these days if it is not so cold, I walk home it takes 50 minutes but it can make me so happy. Hearing the voices of the nature again gives me pleasure, and i will never try to forget my past as whaever it is it is mine, I will try to live with it.

I DO NOT WANNA LIVE IN A HOUSE WHICH HAS GOT A ROOF ALTHOUGH IT DOES NOT OWN WALLS, PLS.

For being Happy

1. Watch the sunset together.

2. Whisper to each other.

3. Cook for each other.

4. Walk in the rain.

5. Hold hands

6. Buy gifts for each other.

7. Roses.

8. Find out their favorite cologne/perfume and wear it every time you're together.

9. Go for a long walk down the beach at midnight.

10. Write poetry for each other.

11. Hugs are the universal medicine.

12. Say I love you, only when you mean it and make sure they know you mean it.

13. Give random gifts of flowers/candy/poetry etc.

14. Tell her that she's the only girl you ever want. Don't lie!

15. Spend every second possible together.

16. Look into each other's eyes.

17. Very lightly push up her chin, look into her eyes, tell her you love her, and kiss her lightly.

18. When in public, only flirt with each other.

19. Put love notes in their pockets when they aren't looking.

20. Buy her a ring.

21. Sing to each other.

22. Always hold her around her hips/sides.

23. Take her to dinner and do the dinner for two deal.

24. Spaghetti? (Ever see Lady and the Tramp?)

25. Hold her hand, stare into her eyes, kiss her hand and then put it over your heart.

26. Dance together.

27. I love the way a girl looks right after she's fallen asleep with her head in my lap.

28. Do cute things like write I love you in a note so that they have to look in a mirror to read it.

29. Make excuses to call them every 5 minutes

30. Even if you are really busy doing something, go out of your way to call and say I love you.

31. Call from your vacation spot to tell them you were thinking about them.

32. Remember your dreams and tell her about them.

34. Tell each other your most sacred secrets/fears.

35. Be Prince Charming to her parents.

36. Brush her hair out of her face for her.

37. Hang out with his/her friends.

38. Go to /Mosque: pray/worship together.

39. Take her to see a romantic movie and remember the parts she liked.

40. Learn from each other and don't make the same mistake twice.

41. Describe the joy you feel just to be with him/her.

42. Make sacrifices for each other.

43. Really love each other, or don't stay together.

44. Let there never be a second during any given day that you aren't thinking about them, and make sure they know it.

45. Love yourself before you love anyone else.

46. Learn to say sweet things in foreign languages.

47. Dedicate songs to them on the radio.

48. Fall asleep on the phone with each other.

49. Stand up for them when someone talks trash.

50. Never forget the kiss goodnight and always remember to say, Sweet dreams."

Happy Sacrifise 'Festival of Muslim'

Yeah.... Now that a year has passed again and our union (vuslat) is going to finish tomorrow.

We need to understand what Kurban bayrami: sacrifise festival is because it is mostly misunderstood by so many people who are both muslim and nonmuslim.

For being a muslim we just repeat these words" Lailaheh illahlah Muhammeden Rasullullah" that means There is just one GOD and Muhammed is the prophet. We, muslims, do not have to sacrifise animal animals to GOD if we are not rich enough.But It is a fact that like every religion Islam has its own conditions

These are .

1. One should repeat the sentence that I mention above
2. Praying( namaz kilmak)
3. Fasting
4. Being a pilgrimage
5. Giving alms

However, God never wants poor people to do all these things of course. These are not mandatory for them. There is inequality in society, there are so many poors and Islam wants rich people to help poor people via this way. Islam aims to focus people`s attentions to the poor lifes and poverty and it tries to make people learn and understand how a person live.

I have read some news about animal sacrifising in India, people sacrifise so many animals to a pagan god and leave the dead bodies of the animals in the field for the god, I think this is nonsense this event should not be compared with the sacrifise festival of muslim because we sacrifise animal for GOD ok but we deliver its meat to people, we do not leave it to vulturs. And I am in some difficulties to understand how god is this that the Indian people believe, we can conclude that this poor (so called god) needs meat to live but GOD that we believe, does not need anything or anybody. GOD ask us to sacrifise animal for our sake.

Please I beg you DO NOT COMPARE this HOLY festival with INDIAN`s stupid festival. GOD gives us mind, wit, intelligence to understand life so GOD cannot force us we HAVE TO understand and evaluate life and death.

HAPPY SACRIFISE FESTIVAL OF MUSLIM

HAPPY KURBAN BAIRAM

One day, Everything will come to an end, we cannot change this but when it happens so early, we perish ourselves or I think we do.

I know that I have a few readers but I have no other people to talk here as so many of them are far away from here or work abroad. I laugh at me because paradoxically even tough I always want to be alone, I am not happy although I am on my own now and I am blue. I do not like myself when I am blue.

It is very easy for me  to charge life with my own faults and I can blame it but I must face with my life and its results and I should not complain because I can hold up these as an example for the rest of my life lest I will perish myself.

There will not be any other excuses or begging for staying together or to be together forever since as it said ,typically, let him\her go and wait to see if s\he comes back. I am tired of being sorry.

There will be no tears anymore.

Goodluck Muammer

We could not manage to be the two parts of an apple.

Yasemin Was Here

Says That

PEACE AND SOME MORE....

Welcome

           I WELCOME YOU "MARIO"

Wings; Launching Your Beautıful Mind

 "I AM NOWHERE TO BE FOUND"

I DO NEED SOMEONE WHO CAN TRANSLATE THIS SENTENCE INTO TURKISH or CLARIFY IT IN ANY WAYS IN ENGLISH, PLS

 HELP ME !!!!!

Make up Course, God damn it

I am supposed to be off today but somebody told me that she had wanted to have make up course to understand English grammer better than others and I accepted it by thinking that it would be just a few hours so i would still be off, I thought working ,even if it is just a few hours, is better than sleeping at home. However now I am at work and I cannot do what I plan because my student who wants to have make up course is not here and i do not think she will come so i feel myself as a donkey which carries its pack on his back and wake up in all mornings of the week and weekend. I used to come to believe people when I was student and I used to have strong beliefs about people but now I perish myself whenever I  want to be optimistic. I cannot hope anything good about this life, people should respect each other. Ok, it is right they pay money for this language education but I am not anybody`s slave or villein to go and come when desired. Working and Producing make me happy and healtier but seen as an middle age slave does makes me crazy.  I hate people living and feeding themselves carelessly in this country, I do hate people earning money in this country and  who do not pay their taxes, yet now I am one of them I am a capitalism`s modern slave. let me explain you how :-( . I work in a company in which speaking English is taught, "The boss" ask me to sign a two years contract to provide me insurance and to give my legal rights to me and I say that I do not think to work here for a long time. He, by regarding this, offered me to give a work without the job and life safety, but the most painful side is that I have to accept this offer as I need money and I am subjected to a stupid exam to gain my right in Turkey. I am  an English teacher but maths and science are asked to me even if I do not have any further education on them, they do not ask me even one English word but they ,unblushingly, can easily complain about the poor quality of language education in this country.

               

                "VIVA LA TURQUIE"

So many researches are done in this fuckin` country to show its power, politicians and generals blackmail other countries showing the fake, nominal power of the army but they are still not aware of the importance of the education. Education is the foot of everything, if you educate your youth, you can do everything whatever you want. Germany is the biggest example of this, they were defeated two times in world wars but we should remember that 99 % of the population were literate at that time while we have just 15 % literate people. This is what I mean they didnt ignore to educate the citizens from HANSEL to GRATEL.  NOW They are one of the most powerful ecomomy in this fuckin` world.

  "VIVA LA TURQUIE, VIVA LA TURQUIE"

Hide and Seek in 9/11/2009 It was wonderful

We had so many problems but now there is nothing that i have to worry about, this is a great feelling or falling related to my beloved.  My brother got engaged three days ago and i was planning to go there, actually i was going to witness my brother`s one of the most important days. But somebody phoned me that day, it was Yasemin and she said that she had came to Istanbul. She was about to get on the plane and I was going to another city at this time. So i had to changed my route to the SAW Sabiha Gokcen International Airport, and also i had to find a reasonable excuse for not going with my family. I had to lie my family and i said them i was called from work and if i hadnt go i would be fired. Even though they didnt seem to believe, they would know how much i give importance to my family so they pretended to believe. Anyway, i had been waiting for an hour when Yasemin arrived. We went to Camlicafor having breakfast, here are some pics of it   

I adore this view and it is my habit to have breakfast here at the weekend ( by the way i havent upload our pics on my computer yet, when i do it i let you see them.

We had a great breakfast there and then we wander around Camlica for a while, we have came to believe that we cannot exist without each other. I and of course Yasemin were very happy. I decided to take small ISTANBUL tour with Yasemin. my instant plan was that

1. 
   
   to go somewhere in which  we cannot be disturbed by anybody
   
   
   
2. 
   
   to have a moment by the bosphorus with silence and seagulls
   
   
   
3. 
   
   to show Yasemin one of my favourite places in Istanbul; Tema, here is its pic  
   
   
   
4. 
   
   to eat something at Tema then go to Kadikoy (  the place in which i have spent my life and sorrow)
   
   
   

we followed this plan one by one, it was really great. there Yasemin was and i havent noticed how much i miss her till i see her again after months, this was our problem. As soon as we come together, we forget everything. But the time passed so quickly and i had to sent her back to Trabzon ( the city i hate most) Goodbye Yasemin = i am going to miss you.

I THINK THIS IS WORTH TO PUBLISH

Mediocrity knows nothing higher than itself, but talent instantly recognizes genius.

 by SIR ARTHUR CONAN DOYLE

HERE IS MY ERZURUM; MY BELOVED CITY

Do you remember and miss this scene?

I NEED SOME OFF DAYS

I NEED SOME OFF DAYS TO BE FREE LIKE THOSE DOLPHINS, I NEED SOME OFF DAYS TO SEIZE DAY AND THE MOST IMPORTANT ONE I NEED SOME OFF DAYS TO REACH YASEMIN, I MISS HER HYSTERICALLY.

VIVA LA DIFFERENCE !!!!!!'!

LİFE IS ACTUALLY SO BEAUTIFUL LIKE THIS SWEET FLOWER BUT ALSO IT IS SO COMPLICATED AND HARD TO SHOULDER.

I Wanna Write Something On "Present Perfect Tense"

So many new English learners unfourtunately have troubles about the differences between "present perfect tense and the past simple tense". I believe, this is because of the similarities of the translations of both sentences that are constructed in the these forms but the solution of this entanglement is actually very easy. How ? We should first know that how many past tenses we have in Turkish. Only one but we can divide this past tense into two in its own form so we have "mışlı" and "dılı" past tenses in Turkish ( by the way I wanna add this: the people who are not Turkish language borned claim that Turks never lie because they say "you use 'mış' in your sentences as if other guys said the sentence". I think this is so funny :-))) anyway let's back to our subject.) Present PERFECT Tense tells about the things that happen in the past but go on in present or have just ended so we can still be affected by it.Have and Has are used as auxiliary verbs in Present Perfect Tense and also we are to use verb 3 ın thıs tense. These are simple differences of Present Perfect Tense. Every English teachers claim that we dont have PRESENT PERFECT TENSE in Turkish but I wanna put an argue for this because to me we do have Present Perfect Tense in Turkish not Past Simple Tense. Here are my reasons for trying to prove my idea:

             1.It ıs saıd that we do not have to use any time expressıons whıle making sentences in PRESENT  perfect tense, let's take a look to Turkish " Ben eve gittim, Ayşe top oynadı, Onlar çamurda koştular, Babam ve oğlum pikniğe gittiler." there are not any incorrectness of styles even though we use no time expressions. The same structure works in Turkish I think as it is in English.

             

             2.In Present Perfect Tense we can make a sentence like that " I have had breakfast this morning" and also in Past Simple "I had breakfast this morning". I know they are same when we translate them into Turkish : Ben bu sabah kahvaltı yaptım. I have always supported the deep meaning in the sentences, when we use Present Perfect Tense, the sentence means it is still morning so the process may go on but when we use Past Sımple Tense, it is anyother times apart from morning so the process cannot be repeated again.

            

             3.There is no proper response for Present Perfect Tense so I have made up one ı hope you lıke it    " Günümüzle Bağlantılı Geçmiş Zaman"

    Here are some examples of Present Perfect Tense:

• Don't forget to post the letter, will you?' `I've already posted it.'
• What time is Mark leaving?' `He's already gone
• I've written the letter but I haven't posted it yet.
• Jim is away on holiday. He has gone to Spain. (= he is there now or on his way there)
• Would you like something to eat?' `No, thanks. I've just had lunch.'
• Ow! I've cut my finger. ( it is still blooding)
• Where's your key?' `I don't know. I've lost it.' (I haven't got it now) ( I still dont have it)

Knowledge is power

THIS IS RUSSIAN COUNRTY MAP

Do you know Where the first EZAN is announced in the morning on earth ? Here is the answer; Kamcatka,Russia. The sun comes out from here every morning for millions of years, north of the Japan and the far east part of Russia which keeps itself like a hook there. The People who are from Kamcatka are the men who see the sun first everymorning in the world. They are firstly  invited to the salvation in this circulation of world. What a holy invitation! The morning EZAN which begins in Kamcatka drop by the all countries in an order, it lodges between the meridians and it searches for minarets for holy words; ALLAHU EKBER ( GOD  is almighty). Buhara, İsfahan, Damascus, Mecca, Medina, Urfa, İstanbul, Berlin, Barcelona, London, New York, LA bring together their talented muezzins with HOLY words ; EZAN, in the minarets. The whole world hears the EZAN in each second. Mankind is always invited to the salvation. Turkish, Arabian, Acem muezzins repeat the same words; ALLAHU EKBER- means GOD is almighty.

WHO IS THE REAL LANDLORD IN THIS COUNTRY?

DID MY GRANDFATHERS DIE FOR NOTHING?

DO WE DESERVE TO SEE THESE FUCKING DAYS?

WHAT ARE OUR FAULTS ?

WHY ARE WE SO MERCIFUL TO THE MURDERERS?

IS pkk A CHARITY ORGANIZATION? 

OR HAVE THEY REPRESENTED THE COUNTRY SUCCESSFULLY?

IF YOUR ANSWER IS NO, IF THE FUCKING ANSWER IS NO

THEN TELL ME PLS TELL ME IF YOU KNOW

IF YOU ARE AWARE, WHAT IS GOING ON

IN TURKEY

WHY DO WE RELEASE THE TERRORISTS INSTEAD OF BURNING AND KICKING THEIR GODDAMN ASSES?

Please... I want your answers. What would you do?

WHAT IF YOU HAVE TO SACRIFICE YOURSELF FOR THE SAKE OF SAVING YOUR MOTHER ?

Success Follows the Perseverance

It is generally known that only the success is remembered by others but what about the rest or the path that lead us to success? I always repeat and repeat this motto "First, i should believe in myself for doing anything even if it is a cup of tea for me. Then success comes. SUCCESS is the final destination of the considered work. Why do not we give our ears to learn something from Thomas EDISON? He had failed many and many times before we invented the bulp

but he did not give up and so we can lighten up our homes and the world.

HERE we have question : what would we do, if he given up? Maybe someone else could find another solution but s/he might do neither !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I think, being determined and having perseverance are the most important keys to success. Without it everything would be very hard.

We have to lean over this topic; we should be persevering.

Because of my laziness

it is because of my laziness

This is what i want to mention.

HOW DO WE TEACH OR LEARN?

Teaching or in other word education is one of the most important key of a nation or the whole world as we can exist and develop the life on earth via it so it can be infered that life would be so hard without education. Considering these brief information, we can easily claim that a life without education cannot be thought or even dreamed.

For reaching our aims in education, we have to have some good teaching techniques for educating the people who are candidates to dedicate themselves for the future generation. Unlike the most common belief, being a teacher is not so easy. On the contrary, i think it is one of the most difficult profession on earth and it needs to be dealt with carefully. Of course we should be expert and give importance to that job so we are to be ready for doing this crucial task. We can talk about so many teaching methods here such as generative grammer method that gives grammer more than daily usage and information or we can mention about silent way method or any others. I think it will be useless thing to talk or discuss about what is going to be used while teaching because as an experinced english learner and a teacher i am sure about that education should be in the way that the students want.

According to my experiences, using an exact method is one of the key point of failure. Here is the explanation. We can make a resemblence between plants and students if the students are plants so we are the farmers and we should water them regularly and give the necessary items to the plants to provide them enough time and power to grow. All students are different kinds of plant, they have different personalities so we should have different medicine to get make them better when they need us, age is not so important and this subject is out of the word here, students can be at their six or sixty, the aim is to teach them perfectly. To me the best technique in teaching is knowing the student and the ability to provide the necessary knowledge them because if you do this both sides takes pleasure from what they want and they have desire to teach and to be taught. A smiling face is the secret for opening the locked doors to the teacher. İf we need to give an example, this is great; think about a student who is intellegent but lazy. How can we take his attention ? First we should be aware of why he is here and what he wants and then we should know what kind of subjects he likes so we can prepare a proper plan for him for example we present the subject hoe he likes, i must note that if we have a large class we should of course apply this by giving importance to majority`s attention.

In short i believe in that success is inevitable for the determined student and motivated teacher.

WHY DO SOME PEOPLE BECOME MORE SUCCESSFUL?

Being successful is so important in everybody`s life, i think. Everybody wants to be awarded and respected but there is a problem here nobody struggles enough to have it, they just want. Yeah,

Having some courses besides American studies is also great chance for us because they motivate us to be more successful. As a student and also a teacher, i would like to have some courses on literature, drama and art of photography. The reasons are these; literature is a different way of life and it gives pleasure to me while reading a novel or enjoying a poem. Literature is very interesting and has different things because you can know and discover new cultures, new people and new places inside of you with the help of writers, poets and composers. Let ` s think about a place that you have never been. İs it so important to have been there before? İ think it is not because you can use your imagination to create your own world inside of your mind via literature. Literature enfranchises you whatever you need to imagine what you want. The Lord Of The Rings and Harry Potter series by J. R. R. Tolkien and J.K. Rowling are the most contemporary and best examples because in both books we encounter very different worlds that have ever been created. For those reason i wanna have literature courses.

And drama… I always ask this question to myself; what is drama? İs it a reflection of the life and world or is it a simple play that is invented to deceive ourselves. İ think drama is a perfect platform to imitate the life that we actually do not have. I believe in this “if i do not mock the life, by hook or crook it mocks me so i wanna take the control of life instead of letting it take the control of my life. As it is said that “Life is a hysterical desire   desired hysterically” by ZIVA. “Let's Play Pretend... and Act Like It Goes Naturally.” by Seyma T. EROL. So we play a game in a game i think drama course will be very helpfull to teach me how to act in this game.

And my love: art of photography. When i look back the past in which people could not have any chance to take the screen what exactly is. No matter how many times they have tried, they could not reflect the passion and the dreams or the reality that they witness but now we are able to show every single details of life; a bird feeding its infant or a cloud while snowing in a charming style. I wanna be like a mirror for reflecting life from my point of view.

Herewith, the answer of the question of why some people are more successful is so simple because they are sure about what they want and desire so they are successful.

WE ARE USED TO BEING THE CENTER OF THE WORLD

Once upon a time there was a nation on the central asian steppe living in tents and doing their best task; fighting for their aim under the shadow of peace and mercy. Who thought that one day they would come to Anatolia going beyond the mountains and the hills. When they gathered together, they constructed a miracle. The name of the miracle has been TURKEY up till now. This is TURKEY; this is the motherland of so many civilizations; Assyria, Lydia, Hittite, Byzantium, Ottoman.

And this is our turn; the turn of TURKISH REPUPLIC. We are the growing power of both middle east and southern europe with our language and culture. I think it is not generally known that our history goes back to the beginnig of history. Isn't it weird that sometimes we think we are at the center of the world but however you think on it, i think we are right for having such ideas like that because as one italian says that if the world were one country, Istanbul would be its capital. This is alone enough to fall in love with Istanbul… Istanbul is not,of course, the one that we have, it is just a simple example of our culture. Istanbul is our cornerstone because Dar-i saadet in other words Asithane, Darü’s Saltanatü’l Seniyye , Konstantinopol or most common known now Istanbul shows the diversity of the nations that Istanbul has. Unlike Europe, Anatolian people gives importance to family, friendship and neighbourhood values. Let`s look at beauty and mystery of Anatolian and Turkish culture. I am sure that if you watch them you are gonna adore the whirling dervishs while they pray to GOD. Or you are not able to forget the magnificent mosques and palaces or churches that combine the indulgence and love together. Turkey is like a bridge not only between two continents but also between two great cultures and civilizations which dominate the earth; east and west. You can see so many people having a western lifesytle and living in metropolitans and also you can come across so many people who have islamic and eastern way of life. Women wearing scarf and driving luxery cars can easily be seen on the street in many cities. That shows that we have wide range of diversity. İf you wanna hear something about our language, Turkish is affected by so many other languages and cultures such as chinese, arabic, french because of our relationships with other countries and also the religions that we believe. But although it has been affected so many times by other languages, it has always been the dominant language which has got so many beautiful songs, novels and poems. İf you would prefer to wander all around the country, fantastic stories will surely charm you.

In short, we are here to welcome you sincerely and eager to show and demonstrate our fantastic culture and way of life which carry a lot of interesting things in it. This is TURKEY and she waits for you.

I`M a GRAVE MAN

"And this is my grave,

I cannot reach or see you because of my language that i actually dont know but i think i know, and what`s more i`m losing you that`s why i not only curse but also wanna kill myself and break into pieces as i am rubbishy and clumsy. The things which i hold go away from my hands i am not able to grap them while they are running and flying away. There is nothing that i may catch and never give up." says ZIVA and so i often no nooo...  i always think over this brain draining considering its excuses. WHY... and  HOW...

Now that i write about ZIVA`s words so you can think that i am supposed to go on with ZIVA and brain drain but nooo the virtual subject for today is the literature itself and ,one way or another, its acquisitions but  the subjects are ZIVA and his words when you deeply think on it.

THE STREAM OF CONSCIOUSNESSconsciousnessCONSCIOUSNESS.

Yeah , i am in that bullshit technique, it(?) takes a lot to concentrate on something or to build up my mind. However it takes, it happens and i am not aware of it and the biggest problem is that i am not accustomed to setting them alone or free. Not only did i lose my mind but also i lost my CONSCIOUSNESS, i will no longer work on that or no longer will i work on that. What is this mo`her fucking technique?

Even though i realise that that is not stream of ...  . Ok  i know  i often change my mind, my ideas, this can be a different thing. On the contrary it cannot be changed neither.

I talk and write nonsense and nonsense. These are the two important questions; WHY  and HOW.  Those guys  are the ones which form my life and destroy my inner world. I have never been such a guy who hates everything and think that of being a useless man but here i am and i do exist with all my breath, i am being impatient and poor.

YAGMUR i always try to follow your writings. What a nice sentence you use; the life what you want and the life what is forced to be lived by. It consists of three things HOME for sleeping and sheltering yourself, WIFE for having sex and pleasure yourself and also giving birth for the poor generation of future and MONEY for eating and buying without giving importance the rest.

I dont want such kinda life on my shoulder. I am in need of a girl who cares me and our children with passion and love but of course with loyality i need a girl who wants me to take her to dinner i mean i hate a life which is done for doing it

I THANK YOU MY GOD and I THANK YOU for your mercy and blessing.

I beg for your PARDON i am sorry for forgetting you. what a shame !!!!!

I forgot you. yes i confess. i forgot you.

But now i understand i realize again and again that the real cure is you, i do not need anybody but you.

I WANT YOUR MERCY in the front of  those ...